Tuesday 28 May 2013

You dont know the meaning of Tired !!

So I mentioned in my previous post that I had a condition called ME (Myalgic Encephalomytits) now I hear you say what is that? Some of you might know it as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. But still I hear you ask what is the actual condition? Basically it means you are VERY tired, no EXHAUSTED most if not all of the time. The reason I changed tired to exhausted is because 99% of people say there tired and if I was to say that you wouldn't understand how truly tired I feel so exhausted would better fit this condition, but even then people just brush it away! But there is much more to constantly being exhausted that I needed to explain to everyone.

Now I have been diagnosed with this condition for over 2 years officially but if I look back I most probably have had this condition for just over 6 years, while deteriorating year on year to the point where I am now! I used to be able to play football 3 times a week, take on 2 friends at once at badminton without any problems, I was always on the go but over the years this started to slow down as I would find myself struggling to keep up until it got to point where the day after playing an hour of football it felt I had been hit by a bus! basically unable to move and struggle getting out of bed. So I hear you all saying that's a sign of getting old! well this started when I was around 25/26 so not old at all!

When I came to the doctors several years ago with how I was feeling the first thing he said to me was there is a few things that it could be, but one he wont test me for until all other ideas are exhausted (no pun intended) he didn't at the time tell me what this one thing could be just that its not very nice. If you hadn't guessed this one condition was ME! not me personally lol but Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (sorry tried to make light of it lol) anyway continuing on I was tested for Depression, eating disorders blood tests on blood tests for high this low that blah blah my head and arms hurt!!! Until finally it was diagnosed that I had this unknown condition called M.E!

So you can imagine myself thinking "what the fuck is he on about"!, so as per doctors guidelines on this subject he gave me a leaflet and I was told to sign up to the NHS ME Association program oh! also check out the NHS link for info on it!! Right so whats the fucking cure? to which I was told THERE IS NO KNOWN CURE! Yup you heard that right the condition I have has no fucking cure, I was then told it can last months, years or a life time, whats even better is the doctors.... hell no-one knows what causes this complete tool of a condition!

I still hear you ask "how are you affected by M.E! well there are many symptoms associated with M.E and different degrees of severity to which thankfully I am classed somewhere in the middle. I say Thankfully as the worst case I have seen is someone confined to a wheel chair due to lack of strength and energy to walk while needing to rest on several occasions throughout the day just to get by!! Now while I'm not as bad as this I still struggle......badly on occasions.

What again most people aren't aware of is that this condition isn't just about being tired so to speak there are other not just physical issues but mental issues too! For example I can get wiped out just by going up the stairs! Yes going up the stairs can get me to the point that I need to sit down and take a rest! Now there are good days and bad days. the stairs being in the middle of that. A bad day for me consists of not being able to get out of bed, while not spending all day in bed I can spend several hours longer than most, this isn't for want of trying to get up but the only way I can describe it is that my muscles feel heavy like lead weights, while my head is fuzzy and my eyes just don't want to open, almost as if I've been drugged. A good day could be that I just feel tired but not exhausted!

Whilst the fatigue is the biggest problem I have there are a few more noticeable issues that when coupled together really makes this a life changing condition! A common problem known to those with M.E is muscle and joint pain, to which I also get namely in the back (almost all the time) and my legs/knee joints (frequently). I also suffer from disordered sleep on occasions insomnia while this isn't as frequent as other issues this can be one of the worst as lack of sleep as most know is very draining. The next problem I suffer with is Short term memory loss which also couples with verbal pronunciation, meaning I sometimes struggle to speak out what I want to, then there's the gastric disturbances!! yup I shit a lot! but this also couples with the fact that I have a dietary condition known as Ceoliacs Disease (wheat & Gluten Allergy). A smaller random symptom which I get is sore throats !!!

Theirs one more problem that I suffer with that really is the one that upsets me the most out of all of the issues and that's the mood swings, I can just snap! I will be in a fine mood then all of a sudden without warning everything will fuck me off and ill be very agitated for no known reason what so ever, this means that I can cause arguments where not needed. But I must stress this is not an intentional thing it just happens and I cant explain why or how other than it does happen quite frequently. Only those with the condition can understand this. (So from this the picture I've just portrayed of myself is that I'm a miserable twat that cant speak properly, always in pain, spends most of the time taken a shit while falling asleep and forgetting to flush!!lol) Thing is you'd be forgiven for being right for thinking this as this is how I feel most of the time! Bar forgetting to flush !!!lol

Whats worse this condition isn't visible at first glance, hell its not noticeable at all!! I don't walk funny (unless I need a shit lol) I've no visible marks (other than tattoos) I don't froth at the mouth, so to look at me you would think there is nothing wrong and there in lies the problem, people see you as LAZY! not the fact I'm having to sit down to get some energy as that last walk up the stairs has wiped me out!! This is a common problem, everyone perceives you to be un-helpful when you decline to do something which leads to being classed as lazy.

Now I try do do as much as I can as I have a wife that needs me and 2 young kids that require my attention too, so take all of my above mentioned problems, the constant attention needed for the family not to mention a job (when I get one lol), its very physically and mentally draining to the point every so often I will just crash and need to just sleep in the middle of the day or stay in bed even longer to try and regenerate some energy.

The mental side of all of this is that your constantly thinking your useless as to do anything even remotely physical is going to have you needing to rest, I mean come on who wouldn't feel useless if they needed a rest after going up the fucking stairs!!! So with this in the back of your mind, every time someone asks of you, you start to get very de-motivated at doing things, as your turning down helping out what would be a simple job for fear of crashing. So now your becoming very un-motivated to do things or go anywhere as this all has a knock on effect, which means you put off social events or even wanting to go out into town as you know it will physically and mentally exhaust you. So then you start to become a recluse, but you cant as you have a wife and 2 kids that love you and want to spend time with you.

This is just a snippet of what it is like well for me anyways to live with this condition known as M.E, now when you see me I put on a brave face I've even been known to waffle on like there is nothing wrong, the joker of the crowd, but just be aware that once I have left your company and gone home I will most likely be crashing as I have for want of a better word physced myself up to try and cover up best my Embarrassing condition. Yes I see this condition as Embarrassing due to the constant need of feeling useless at not being able to do anything without getting warn out!

I don't want your sympathy, I would just like you all to be aware that I am not being blunt on occasions or un-helpful on others as there is a valid reason to why I act the way I do. So Its with this that I will now stop talking about it and lastly just send a huge thank you to those that have been supportive of me and especially a huge thank you to my lovely wife for being the rock that holds everything together.

Please feel free to leave any comments or if there is anything that you wish to know more about don't hesitate to ask.

Finally Here is a very good friends take on what M.E has done to him!

http://as-i-face-the-sun-i-cast-no-shadow.blogspot.co.uk/


Friday 17 May 2013

My Love/Hate relationship of Sketching


As some of you may know I do the odd sketch here and there, normally it is Video Game related! Ok 99% of it is video game related lol. Generally I copy characters I like within games I've played or just something that's caught my eye.

Birthday Sketch Book

I started drawing waaaaaaay back when I was young, I was always told off in school for not paying attention in class as I would always doodle rather than pay attention! So for my 11th Birthday I was given a book to sketch to my hearts content!!

First entry in my sketch book, Dr Mario & Blood Angel
As video games are a big part of my life even back when I was young I would sketch, draw, doodle video game characters to my hearts content! One might say I was obsessed lol but ever since that day I loaded up my NES and copy of Super Mario Bros/Duck Hunt game I've been hooked. So it seemed only fitting that I would draw the things that I loved most!.

Bit of Super Mario Bros and his Power Ups  

Super Mario Kart 
At the time it was all about Super Mario such a simple game but had me and my brother engrossed for hours! Also my favourite Mario Kart game, Super Mario Kart on the SNES!!

One of my Favourite NES games Probotector 
So as now games got released it continually inspired me to sketch images from them, like the awesome Probotector which is still one of my favourite games to date.


One of the most Icon Players in Italian football Del Piero 
It wasn't all about about video games occasionally I would try and draw my favourite football players from the teams I supported, being Half English / Italian I had to have a team from each country to support so for the Italian side of me I choose to support Juventus reason for this was Roberto Baggio simply amazing player ! My English side was decided for me, Manchester Utd as my family are from Manchester! (not a glory hunter lol)

Chrono from the Incredible Chrono Trigger Game

Now your probably thinking why the Love Hate relationship with Sketching/Drawing, well over the years as I continued to draw I found myself becoming more of a perfectionist with the sketches as I wanted the image I was doing to be exact to the one I was copying, this meant I wouldn't do life like drawings anymore but concentrate on Video Game related characters.

Aerith from my favourite Final Fantasy game FFVII (still not perfect imo)
It wasn't until Final Fantasy VII came out that I was really want for a better word anal about getting the images right, I loved the game so didn't want to ruin the characters that most of the world had come to know and love.

Cloud Strife from Final Fantasy VII

So what went from a daily fun enjoyable thing slowly over the years started to only get done when I was bored or had plenty of time to spend on a sketch, the above sketch was done while at a previous job due to long periods of quietness. 


One of my Favourite Characters from Final Fantasy VII Vincent Valentine
It wasn't just my perfectionist manor that slowed down the sketching other things got in the way, gaming, moving house, girls, college, cars etc so you get the picture lol the above piece was actually started in 2007 but I only managed to finish it last year!

The Awesome VIVI from FFIX
I don't know what or why I turned out as anal as I have but it gets to the point where I find it hard to draw unless I'm really in the mood to, which with my current condition and stage in my life wont be any time soon. I've never had any lessons at art although I did go to a few at college but got turned off with all the technical side they tried to show me. I actually hate being like this as I want to draw again as foe the most part I do enjoy it especially when seeing the end product its just the length of time it takes me to get there is very off putting for example the VIVI drawing above id estimate took me 6-8 hours! Now to me that's far too long to be on one sketch as time is short i could be doing other things or several things within that time frame.

Dragon Quest V Sketch I did as a thank you for someone
I also find it hard once I've done one sketch to instantly start another, this could be down to the few reasons I've mention already but do believe that my medical condition makes this far worse than it should be as believe it or not its very draining sketching due to the concentration and in my case the frustration of said sketch looking how I think it should be or how I know I can get it to look! So its with this that I leave you with the last picture I drew, it was a thank you to someone that has done a lot for me just don't ask how long it took me to do lol!!


Sunday 12 May 2013

Private Kindgom Hearts 1.5 HD Screening


Square-Enix Reception


So I was was lucky enough to get an invite to the recent Kingdom Hearts 1.5 HD screening event that was held on the 26th April 2013, It was held at the Square-Enix offices in Wimbledon and was for a very small number of fans to be the first to get a glimpse at the up coming game in English!


Lovely Final Fantasy Display With Original Artwork by Tetsuya Nomura 

This is my first visit to the Square-Enix offices to say I was excited was an understatement seen as I am a huge Final Fantasy fan and Square-Enix follower. So you can imagine my face upon exiting the lift and seeing the Square-Enix Logo like a kid at Christmas! I immediately pan to my right and see a wonderful display of Final Fantasy figurines and more importantly the original sketch by Tetsuya Nomura (as shown Above) which he drew for the Final Fantasy 25th Anniversary Distant Worlds Event held last year (which I managed to attend) So my fan boy inside me is jumping round while outside I try to keep a cool face as ultimately we are here for one of Square-Enix other big franchises!!

FFX & FFX-2 HD Posters (Picture Courtesy of Lewis)

So after being nerded out by the Final Fantasy display I panned round to see a wall full of one of my favourite Final Fantasy's, Final Fantasy X. Alternating between two of the iconic characters in the game Tidus and Yuna, now most of you have seen these posters before back in 2002 when the game was released but the difference this time around was the small yet visible wording under the logo of HD Remastered. So you can imagine my excitement right now in the Square-Enix offices surround by amazing merchandise and images of one of my favourite Final Fantasy games!! Again I have to hold back the urge to burst out in giggle fits as we weren't here to see Final Fantasy!

Then while myself and a few others were waiting there admiring whats on show the Rui Anderson the Square-Enix member of staff comes out to say hi and that they aren't quite ready yet to get going but if we could sign something while we are waiting, so immediately your thinking disclaimer but no it was permission to allow interview footage of ourselves to be distributed as they see fit. Ah Sh*t I thought do I really want people to see my ugly mug! While I'm thinking that I,m still signing the dam form! Then a few more people turn up big grins on each of there faces everyone just as I looked upon entering the offices.

Amazing Kingdom Hearts Artwork in Prime Spot

Once our forms were filled in we were lead to the right of the Square-Enix sign and what hits you through the set of glass doors is this amazing Kingdom Hearts Artwork, in prime location for everyone to see and enjoy. As we were still waiting for a few more to arrive we kindly got a tour of the lounge areas and conference rooms each with different themes from there upcoming games. 

More Amazing Kingdom Hearts Artwork
As you walk down the hall way the first thing that's apparent is the lengths Square-Enix try to push there branding for each of the upcoming games as shown above on the right of the hall way another wonderful Kingdom Hearts piece. (The gun you see in the picture is part of the life size Lara Croft statue they have) but at first glance you would think that Sora and co are about to get shot at !!!!

Lovely Surprise gifts (Heartless Plush & Mickey Mouse Mobile Strap)

So once we have had a quick tour and a few more arrived we are ushered into the room where the demo is to be shown, upon entering awaiting us on our seats were these totally un-expected gifts, a Heartless Plush and either a Donald Duck or Mickey Mouse mobile phone strap, behind where we was sitting a lovely laid out spread of Kingdom Hearts merchandise and nibbles. They even had a PS2 set up with the Original Kingdom Hearts for us to play on and a DS to enjoy after the showcase was finished.

Just as I'm about to get my phone out to start to record some bits and take pictures we are told that unfortunately this time we aren't allowed to do so (Booooooo). Once everyone is sat comfortably they load up the Kingdom Hearts game. 

Beginning of the KH Screening (Picture Courtesy of Lewis) 
The first thing that hit me was how sharp even the title screen looked and really set the tone for whats to come also something that I noticed straight away was the sound quality even from the title screen such a lovely ambient song and still remember it today 11 years on from the original release. 

As it was a private showing Rui Anderson the organizer of the event asked us what level we would like to see first after much silence she prompted by saying how about Halloween Town to which we all agreed to, so up popped the main hub music playing, there's me humming to it, then the gummy ship is selected again there's me humming the brief tune as the flight part was skipped and Halloween Town started. 

Immediately what hits you is the sharpness of the game even from memory the original looked good but when you compared the two as they had the original on show you really notice a difference just like the up coming FFX/X-2 HD remake. Also the clarity in audio, now whether this was due to the set up is something that I cant wait to test out as the soundtrack and voice overs are superb, again instant nostalgia of humming the tune and enjoying the game all over again. So once we saw a bit of Halloween town and a random invisible enemy (due to early code lol) we skipped to another couple of worlds Hallow Bastion and 100 Acre Wood which were equally as detailed.  

Once we had a good look at Kingdom Hearts we got to see RE: Chain of Memories, this was the part I was most intrigued about, as its an update of a remake in 3D from the GameBoy Colour game KH Chain of Memories that was released back in 2005. Now I never got the chance to play the original on GBA or the remake that came out in Japan in 2007 then USA in 2009. As I have never fully seen the remake on PS2 and vaguely remember the 2D sprites of the GBA version I was instantly gripped by what I saw, the level chosen was Atlantica, again the first thing thats apparentt from the get go was the detail just like the KH HD update this too looks sharp, what got my eye more was the tactical element compared to the first game as you fight with cards against your opponents either attack or use magic, there are even summon cards to aid you in battle. What was really great to see was the inclusion of voice acting and once again great sound. 

We then finally got to get a look a the last piece of content that is on the HD collection, this was to do with one of the more recent games in the series KH 358/2 Days on DS. Now this isnt a playable game as such, its a compilation of all the cut scenes within the original DS game, I personally didnt pay that much attention to this part as I will be playing the DS version at some point soon, but what I did notice once again is the detail and Sound quality. What is apparent throughout the entire collection is that the small team have put alot of effort into this little package from the amazing graphical updates to the wonderful sound quality!

Kingdom Hearts Merchandise (Picture Courtesy of Lewis)

So the showing of the game was finished and it was then time for everyone to have a brief interview on what they thought about the game, while we were all waiting to be selected we all mingled and chatted while getting to check out the lovely spread that was laid out on the tables behind, showing off as previously mentioned the original on PS2 and a collection of amazing KH merchandise. 

Amazing Ltd Edition Kingdom Hearts Playing Cards
After I had my interview I came back into the room to be given this wonderful Limited Edition Kingdom Hearts playing cards which was another very nice surprise, we were told that originally as there was meant to be more people attending we wouldn't of had these so it was extra special!!

Winners of the Private Kingdom Hearts Screening

Finally to top the night off we had a group photo of the selected winners of the Kingdom Hearts screening. I will be honest im not the biggest Kingdom Hearts fan dont get me wrong I loved the first 2 games but kind of got lost with the numerous side games that came out but after seeing this little snippet of the HD remake it really got me excited for the release as it means I get to play one of the best PS2 RPG's again and also a sight into those that I missed out on.

Myself with Rui Anderson and two of the other winners Tomasz  & Lewis

All in all it was a great evening as I got to visit the offices of my personal favourite video gaming company Square-Enix, I was one of the first to watch the English code of the upcoming KH 1.5 HD game and come home with some great un-expected gifts. So for that I am grateful for being selected and would like to give a special thanks Rui Anderson & the Square-Enix team for having us at the event.

Wednesday 1 May 2013

My First Video Game Review!!



So along with always wanting to do a blog I have always wanted to have a go at reviewing Video Games, so after speaking back and forth with a good friend of mine I decided to take the plunge! I had actually done the review before I started my blog and it was featured on the great video game website http://www.futureretrogamer.com/index.html but wanted to share it with you again as the game I have reviewed is truly epic and worth playing! So without further adieu my video game review (rhyme not intended) lol

Vandal Hearts – PSX – Review
Release Date 

Japan – October 25th 1995
USA – March 27th 1997
EU – June 1st 1997




PAL Cover Art
I've been wanting to share my love for video games for a while now and wasn't sure how best to or for that matter where to start, after speaking with a few fellow gamers it was suggested to me to start writing reviews of games that I've loved and depending on how I’m feeling, loathed!
So now that I had decided to test the waters with writing a review I just needed to decide on what game to choose! At first it was a daunting prospect writing a review about games I've played but one kind gamer friend pointed out that reviews are essentially people’s opinions, so with that in mind it spurred me on to write my first review!

Bang!! That was my head hitting a brick wall on what game to write about, I mean I've been playing games for over 20 years, do I go with my beloved Nintendo the NES or SNES perhaps or something more recent PS2 or PS3, then it hit me I will go back to when I first fell in love with the Tactical RPG. 
Now most people that know me know that I love my RPG’s specifically Final Fantasy, so I know what you’re all thinking…I’m going to be reviewing Final Fantasy Tactics! Nope this wasn't the T-RPG that got me hooked on this very underrated branch of RPG family, in fact it was a game that came very early on in the PSX life, back in 1997. The game I’m referring to is Vandal Hearts.
Vandal Hearts… what’s that I hear you say?! And it would be understandable if you haven’t heard of such a game, but what’s stranger is that the game is done by the powerhouse that we know and love; KONAMI. Yes I said KONAMI, makers of some of the most revered games to date: Metal Gear Solid, Silent Hill, Castlevania to name a few. That’s not to say Vandal Hearts isn’t known but it’s more of a cult following within the RPG community so much so it did spawn a sequel a few years later and even more recently a prequel that was released on the PSN/XBL.

The thing was that I myself hadn't heard about this game (which I personally class as one of my Favourite RPG’s) until 1999. I came across this while working as a now nonexistent games company and can remember watching a work colleague playing this game on a lunch break and thinking; wow! After about 15 minutes of demonstration I said to myself I have to get his game but it had been out for several years and nowhere to be found. The work colleague pointed me in the direction of the then small website called eBay (that’s another story entirely) and low and behold I managed to procure a copy and so began my love for the T-RPG genre.

'The Start of a Journey you won't forget'
So now onto why it began my love for the T-RPG let’s begin with the story; “you begin as Ash Lambert head of the Ishtarian Security Forces and while there begins to suspect a conspiracy in the highest levels of the government. While trying to bring attention of this conspiracy to light he himself becomes branded a conspirator and has to fight with his allies to restore order to the nation” throw in a thousand year Religious Dynasty, corruption, outlaws and pirates you have a griping political struggle to sink your teeth into.

So have I got your interest yet? Well if that wasn't enough right from the moment you boot up the disc, await the Playstation “Shing”, the classic Konami logo appears from the ground, rocks fly everywhere, then the screen fades black. A beautiful female voice takes your attention at the start, the Opening CG movie explaining the back story begins but the voice it mesmerizes you and draws you in, the track I am referring to is this;


Burning Sorrow – Sang by Sarah Brandon
While the CG isn’t to the standard of say a Final Fantasy title you don’t mind because the sheer beauty of the song distracts you enough, and you start to take in what is being shown giving you the backdrop for what’s to come. Continuing with the music, while not everyone’s cup of tea I personally love it, the reason being it gave me all the right feelings at the right time.Right from the opening intro, and its sense of the calm before the storm (Which builds up to the forthcoming brutal battles), to the wonderful serene “Karma” (Samela’s Retreat) track which gives a sense of peace and comfort while in the heart of the battle. And even the ‘Final Battle’ music when it switches between turns with a more ‘march to arms’ approach, spurring you on to victory along with faster paced ‘approach for the enemies’ turn…all gives a feeling of tension, panic and retaliation. Throw in the usual effects when spells or attacks happen you have yourself a complementary OST that gives you all manner of feelings throughout the game.

The graphics for me at the time were superb even though I played the game several years after its release OK they weren't as good as Final Fantasy VII but that game was breaking boundaries with what the Playstation could do. Vandal Hearts was an early release game yet to me didn't feel like it from the detailed portraits in text speech, the isometric battles down to the animation of characters, to the flamboyant spells and topped off by the exuberant use of blood when slaying someone. It all complemented each other within the medieval type realm portraying the brutality of the said era! (Although fictional)
'The Over The Top Bloodbath'

Which leads me nicely onto its game play,  by now you've guessed that it’s a Tactical RPG for those that don’t know what that is, you have an isometric grid and each character has their own movement stats, you take your turn moving the characters around the battlefield. 

Once you have given all your characters commands, it’s the enemies turn until either party is wiped out. Although the game itself is far simpler to say that of Final Fantasy Tactics or Ogre Battle it does the simplicity with ease and makes for an enjoyable experience. You don’t get bogged down with having to do too many commands it’s a case of, (move – attack – defend).  That’s not to say you don’t need tactics on winning fights. The use of Archers for distance attacking, the Knights for heavy damage and Cleric/Mages for healing/attacking spells adds real depth to each battle. The Classes while limited, don’t end there you get the option to level up each Character once to a Higher Class. This adds further strategic elements to fights, like the Archer with the ability to change to a Hawknight , the new class grants further movement across the battlefield making it faster to reach enemies but the negative effect is weakness against archers. The game doesn't end there, not all levels are the same; Konami has done a marvelous job of keeping you gripped from trying to escape a prison or having to rush across a bridge before it collapses. it’s done brilliantly well and outclasses games of today on how to keep the player entertained. But all this is not for the faint hearted as the learning curve on this is steep and very unforgiving so those new to the genre may want to try something more unforgiving before stepping straight in.





‘The Tough Bridge Battle’

The game for me is one of the best T-RPG’s to date. I don’t say that lightly as there are some heavy hitters out there but for me this game has it all; Superb Soundtrack, engrossing Story, and challenging but rewarding game play. But this is my opinion and my bias so I urge you to at least try one of the very first PSX T-RPG’s and once your done give Konami a pat on the back for creating one of the finest T-RPG’s to date.


'The End'

Saturday 27 April 2013

About Me

I've been toying with the idea of doing a blog for quite some time now, but due to my lack of writing skills and grammar it has always put me off......oh and the little thing what to write about?

So after toing and froing! I bit the bullet and here I am!! ........................... Hello!!

I thought what better way to start a blog by giving you a little information about me, I'm a 32 year old that is married with 2 wonderful children of 3 and 7 months, I live in the south of England very close to a town called Brighton!

I have been playing video games for well over 25 years now and there's no sign of that slowing down (multi platform owner and addicted to trophy hunting), love watching movies, support Manchester United (before you all start with the glory hunter bollox my family is from Manchester), im known to most as the joker and I never take things seriously, Its been known that I maybe very laid back to the point I might as well be asleep (so the wifey keeps telling me) I sketch on the odd occasion mostly gaming characters but my anal nature towards perfection puts me off doing it more regularly!

I also suffer from a medical condition called ME - Myalgic Encephalomyetits, I know what your thinking WTF is that! hell I didn't know what it was, but it is also known as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome which can make things very difficult at times. I will be doing a post on this as more needs to be known and understood about this condition!!!!

So that's a little about me but a quick summary would be,  cant spell crap at grammar and takes the piss outta everything!!! I'm not smart hell I have not talents either but what I hope to give and show is my love for Final Fantasy, gaming and ............... well mostly gaming tbh!

Well I hope I've done enough to pique your interest in reading what I have to say in the future!